周六约见设计师和装修经理，定下了设计稿件，包括强弱电图，水管图等，并签下预算合同，给我们打了95折，同时得到了样板房的小优惠

现在有点小兴奋 

下周三早上要见到最终效果图，同时约了厨具和窗台的公司上门测量尺寸

期待一切顺利 加油咯

上周六和老公一起去看设计初稿，确认方案后，这周六一早就要赶到la maison看效果图和预算。

在http://homebbs.sh.soufun.com/msbl~1~271/140254003_140615265.htm 上看到很多装修的小知识，这几天也去一些周围的装潢建材市场转了转。有些小激动，同时觉得压力不小。

以下这些是我在点评上搜到的一些消息，决定这几天抽空都去逛逛。

卢湾区淮海中路138号无限度广场3楼324室(近普安路): 地铁1号线黄陂南路站

 

经过了父母的两天时间商榷争议，确定了装潢设计一体的公司la maison是第一部。下一步，设计师在本周六将给我们看到2个设计初稿，同时在这两天时间内，我要在网上包括书店学习一下更多的装潢知识。

今天，就从学习铺地板和上油漆开始吧。

 

too short time to f.

在吵到不能再吵的时候

我问江要到了倪的手机号码

然后给倪写了短信

六年过去了，我们没有一方和对方主动联系过

倪收到我的消息后，过了半多小时，回了我整整百余字的短信

他说希望这些话不会对我的生活有任何的影响，但是在过去的六年时间里，他一直都想念着我

 

我知道这个社会的男人什么人是真的，什么人是假的

所以我相信倪的消息里的每一句都是真的，我曾经一直觉得分手是错误的，这一辈子不可能遇到像倪一样爱我的人，也不可能再有这样一段痴痴的，只有孩子之间才会有的感情

就在一年多前，我和王谈起这段感情时，王还很肯定地告诉我，爱情是稍纵即逝的，你可能现在偶尔会想起他，但他一定会继续下一段感情，同样还是会痴狂的爱

但是收到倪的消息后，我更相信了自己的直觉

 

有些人相信爱情，被伤透了心是可能一辈子都愈合不了的

那些稍纵即逝的我相信也是爱情，只是爱的没有那么深罢了

 

 

 

 

不敢真的不敢

还是在一个人的时候，寂寞的时候，来到了这里...

 

证明自己太难，讨好别人太难

其实我相信什么人和事都是可以被取代

所以何必把自己看了那么重要？

为什么不再洒脱一些，对自己宽容一些，为自己活一次呢？

 

我还是不敢

.

无聊的每一天,

失去方向的每一个小时,

想念你的每一分钟,

失去的那一瞬间,

回不去的是永远

DEC 25, 2008 - JAN 3, 2009 

to my honey

it was such a lovely gift that you gave me. but you know the best gift you can give is your love and protection forever. that gift i will cherish for rest of my life.

it was such a sweet surprise, when i take off the four-inch high heel get barefooted, you hold me in your warm arms and looking at beautiful fireworks lighting the sky. so beautiful that i wish life could pause for that moment.

it was such an incredible bus ride, that leads us on an unexpected adventure. strange, unfamiliar, but so incredible, as it take us all the way to our destination.  

 

... and the four-hour-long very unforgettable brunch

the mario driving games we played

the red bean and green bean buns we had together

the chilly chilly dining experience at little india

our little funny experience at the japanese bookstore......

 

boy you know i mean it from my heart when i tell you that

life is so beautiful when you are around

安安静静的状态实在有点奢侈 

很多原本极其重要的事情已经无暇顾及，

而原来那些拿来取笑的事物，却占据乐我生活的大半部分

 

于是我又开始迷茫，

时间一天一天过去是很快的，我的青春是消失在哪一天的哪一刻？

说来是很恐怖的，很多新鲜的东西我连一次都没有尝试过，

很多朋友我也真的很久没有见到，

很多幻想现在连想都不敢想

一天一天，我拥有的东西越来越少，我感悟的东西也越来越少...

美女，你知道宝钢集团腐败吗？

胖老师告诉你，宝钢集团是怎么腐败的。

记得上胖老师博客...云云

 

当时我在地铁里给MAX同学打电话,

 胖老师跑到我边上,对我说了上一番话

我还在继续给MAX电话"费华,recording云云..."

突然之间,胖老师凑到我眼前,对着我手机

"费华,你知道宝钢集团腐败吗？..."

 

地铁周围的人都看着我，

奇怪的是，

我居然有种很久很久都没有感受到的，幸福的感觉...

you can control the mind, but you can't control the heart

 so let your heart decide...

outlets还真是个不错的地方

可惜吃的地方太少了

连哈根达斯里面都挤蛮了人

 

可能是前几天衣服都买够了，今天就买了一件sisley的连衣裙

闪闪的蓝紫色还蛮好看的，打完折后三百不到耶~

今天代代同学和canvas同学的购物欲还蛮强的，花的比我多多了

今天我可没有什么购物欲，只是低调地买了一件高调的衣服~~

我不得不拿起了法语书

男人们和女人们

该是时候自己收拾一下行李上路了 

从哪里开始

从哪里结束

五星红旗迎风飘扬, 
胜利歌声多么响亮; 
歌唱我们亲爱的祖国, 
从今走向繁荣富强. 
歌唱我们亲爱的祖国, 
从今走向繁荣富强. 

越过高山,越过平原, 
跨过奔腾的黄河长江; 
宽广美丽的土地, 
是我们亲爱的家乡, 
英雄的人民站起来了! 
我们团结友爱坚强如钢....

台风来的时候

我正在浦东机场的lounge里

认真想着2天不见哈尼有没有黑很多

新加坡的莱弗士购物好不好玩的...

 

没有想到的是，

我会和哈尼一起在圣淘沙骑双人车

在莱弗士品到最原始的singapore sling

在night safari和狼阿狮子阿豪猪阿那么亲密接触

在小区里和哈尼穿着新买的情侣converse一起jogging

When you try your best but you don't succeed
When you get what you want but not what you need
When you feel so tired but you can't sleep 
Stuck in reverse.

And the tears come streaming down your face 
When you lose something you can't replace 
When you love someone but it goes to waste 
Could it be worse?

Lights will guide you home 
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you

And high up above or down below 
When you're too in love to let it go 
But if you never try you'll never know 
"Just what your worth"

Lights will guide you home 
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you 

Tears stream, down on your face 
When you lose something you cannot replace 
Tears stream down your face and I...


Tears stream, down on your face 
I promise you I will learn from my mistakes 
Tears stream down your face and I...


Lights will guide you home 
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you. 

聚散苦匆匆，

此恨无穷，

今年花胜去年红，

可惜明年花更好，

知与谁同？

那片笑声让我想起我的那些花儿
在我生命每个角落静静为我开着
我曾以为我会永远守在她身旁
今天我们已经离去在人海茫茫

她们都老了吧她们在哪里呀
我们就这样各自奔天涯
啦啦啦啦啦啦啦啦啦啦啦，想她
啦啦啦啦啦啦啦啦
她还在开吗
啦啦啦啦啦啦啦啦啦啦啦，去呀
她们已经被风吹走散落在天涯



有些故事还没讲完那就算了吧
那些心情在岁月中已经难辨真假
如今这里荒草丛生没有了鲜花
好在曾经拥有你们的春秋和冬夏

她们都老了吧她们在哪里呀
我们就这样各自奔天涯
啦啦啦啦啦啦啦啦啦啦啦，想她
啦啦啦啦啦啦啦啦
她还在开吗
啦啦啦啦啦啦啦啦啦啦啦，去呀
她们已经被风吹走散落在天涯

where have all the flowers gone
where the flowers gone

where have all the young girls gone
where have all they gone

where have all the young men gone
where have the sodiers gone

where have all the graveryards gone
where did they all gone
她们都老了吧她们在哪里呀
我们就这样各自奔天涯

功夫熊猫和哈尼一起看了两遍还是觉得超级的好看，每次看都没有投入百分之百的注意力真的很可惜，所以会看第三遍的sometime next week

sex and the city的电影，...

另外，原来我对某些cocktail是过敏的，昨天上半身都发红疹了，头昏昏沉沉的，可怜我今天7点半就被哈尼叫醒了...

六月的雨

下阿下阿

下个不停

我开始怀念

高中的男友

高考门口等待的父亲

大学的报刊阅览室

那个哭泣的夜晚

 

失得之间，我有些迷惑，我可以犯错？

 

六月的上海，雨下个不停

一切都在计划之外，但是都来的无法抗拒

There Is A Pain, Inside My Heart
You Mean So Much To Me
Girl, I Love You, Girl, I Love You So Bad

And If You Leave, My Pain Will Go
But That's No Good To Me
Girl, I Love You, Yes, I Love You So Bad

Well It Feels So Good, Sometimes It Feels So Bad
This Is Worse Than Anything I've Ever Had

There Was A Pain, But Now You're Here
And I Don't Fear A Thing
Girl, I Love You, Yes, I Love You So Bad
And She Said, Boy, I Love You
Boy, I Love You So Bad

- Solo -

Girl, I Love You
Girl, I Love You So Bad

Well It Feels So Good, Sometimes It Feels So Bad
This Is Worse Than Anything I've Ever Had

There Was A Pain, But Now You're Near
And I Don't Fear A Thing
Girl, I Love You
Girl, I Love You So Bad
And She Said
Boy, I Love You
Boy, I Love You So Bad
Girl, I Love You
Girl, I Love You

看着来来的博,不知不觉眼泪就下来了

对我来说,这是个多愁善感的季节,是个做决定的季节,是个不能再犹豫要对自己对别人都负责的季节

我知道,我不能逃避,不会放弃

Victoria, i knew your secret, i love the show. i'm glad that you run, and you learn. i want to be there to help you and soothe your mind. it's a sad season, but it could be a fabulous beginning, am i right?

答应的事情是一定要做到的

所以虽然有些晚我有些累还是作了此文

献给陪我度过每个美丽周末和夜晚的情愿和不情愿的

献给吴江路上寂寞的男人和他身边的流浪狗

献给分分和和为爱困惑的某某某

 

芝麻糊很补很滋润，冰冰的感觉也很美；可是一到嘴里，就太腻了

感觉不舒服，那还是不要勉强

我有什么样的借口,这是什么样的邂逅,

是什么样子的经历,学会什么样的放弃

做过什么样的梦,醒后有什么样的迷惑

...

the 2nd chance, 我该是什么样的我?

如果我爱你，我不求回报一定是假的

如果你爱我，我没感觉到也是不可能

如果我付出，你理所当然，记住那是大错特错

因为没有什么爱，会是理所当然

 

关键词：国际奥委会IOC短片，和刘翔一起默哀了3分钟，和星球大战的DOP一起合作，6个礼拜里第二次逛故宫，厌倦起了北京烤鸭，和冠颖一起逛王府井，在南罗古巷发现很潮很潮的T-SHIRT...

总结：我也没有那么low拉~facebook上会有照片!

我错了！

努力花钱！

节日快乐！

闲人甲乙丙丁无非谈论两样：

读过点书的，谈论存在的意义

没怎么读过书的，谈论一切和意义无关的，无意义的事

 

SJP and CN pose on the Fifth Avenue for an April's issue of Vogue

 

Isn't SJP gorgeous, isn't Mr Big cute~

Premiere on May 30th, really can't wait for the movie to come out la~

to me, NY is more of a city to fall in love than Paris, because of sex and the city.

Gucci's commanding presence.

Bold colors are hot hot hot,

military look in basic color, dresses in lush painterly flowers, and trible style,

even hotter~

当看到BBC，CNN的时候，我不得不对他们的报道感到深恶痛绝

当年自己竟会如此迷信西方报道的公正

是哪个老师说一张NYT里面只要有负面评论，就一定会有正面的声音的

 

我的NATIONALISM从来没有这么被ARISE过

当年在日院BOYCOTT日本货的时候没有过

北京申奥成功全国人民放烟火放鞭炮的时候也没有过

 

是的，我讨厌美国和美国人

自傲得可笑的美国人，多数都是半文盲状态

除了想尽一切办法玩乐之外，他们什么都不懂

美国是最没有文化的低俗的国家，他们所谓的文化都是外来的，但他们却如此排斥外国人

真是超级贱的民族

他们所谓的追求自由，ALL BULLSHIT

是自私是自我中心是不顾世界和平只顾自己的利益

是彻底的物质主义和个人主义

 

the torch relay, blessed by all Chinese 

 

清晨走在看牙的路上

去后期制作公司的TAXI中/南昌路上的DESIGN STUDIO

国外的华人后裔担心SMOG，担心交通，担心政治

被问到这个和那个问题的时候，我感觉他们比我担心的更多

他们很在乎中国的国际地位和声誉，虽然不是中国国籍

 

拍了很多长城、故宫、四合院的照片，慢叫放在FACEBOOK上

  

清平乐·六盘山
毛泽东

天高云淡，
望断南飞雁。
不到长城非好汉，
屈指行程二万。

六盘山上高峰，
红旗漫卷西风。
今日长缨在手，
何时缚住苍龙？

hia~we'are all heroes~~

it's so much fun climbing all the way up~~Great Wall is really magnificant and super cool~ weather today is fine too. we are pretty lucky today~ everything basically went on smoothly, and we got absolutely gorgeous China's Next Top Model Champion who's really professional and cooperative at the same time, we got nice weather which wasn't quite bothered by the BeiJing Smog, and we got friendly clients and agency people.

i never thought i am a good bargainer. i hate these things, like i seldom go to Cheap Rd in Shanghai. Everytime i went there, i bought almost nothing. but today , at ShuiXiu Market, i'm not that bad. Maybe because local people here ain't that ruthless and shrewd compared with dealers from other regions. it's hard to believe our client was going so crazy about it.

Sonny, from the agency, is a very interesting guy. He looks tough and cool from outside, who doesn't usually talk much (he says someone called him Lao You Tiao when he's having You Tiao), but i found him quite a gentleman.

this time i'm in BeiJing, i went to Wang Fu Jin with Kelvin, a shopping place haven't been to before, and we shared some bathroom tips and ABC theory on relationship. i kind of find these theories universal.

lots of theories are universal. most Shanghainese haven't tried the sightseeing tunnel from PuXi to PuDong. many Chinese people haven't been to the Great Wall. many fake LVs are made in China, but its major consumers are from abroad, Chinese especially girls and ladies from big cities will never purchase any fake Prada or Dolce Gabbana. people using Macbook always think low of PC...

anyway, i love these interesting talks. some things just happen around you, but sometimes it's so common that you won't even notice its existence. it's always a good thing that you could be reminded by people from outside world how amazing or unusual these "common things" actually are.

we always take too many things for granted, ain't we?

okay, c'est tout~ i'll put more reccee and TVC shooting photos here afterwards. time to take a bath now~~

几天的工作一点没有时间聊天写博，

今天，客户来的前一天，复完景的后一天，微拉来的当天，总算在10点结束晚饭之后有时间上网回复一下邮件，

突然间有点想家想朋友，

一个一个博这样看过去，FLY，小D，WING，TT......

大家现在的生活是什么样子的？都开心吗？会和我有一样的困惑吗？和我一样在追求和寻找吗？

边看边想边猜

过去的日子让人怀念，现在的我莫名地感到了一种责任，

第一次，我没有选择逃避，而是勇于承担更多

我说：

物是人非

人面桃花

你怎么会懂？

差异总是在的，地域的，品味的，价位的，内心的

不懂也没有什么好强求的

一点点的小暧昧很好，但是千万别伤神

多一点的工作量很好，但是千万别伤身

伤那么一点身也还好，但是还是别伤神

first week was mostly spent together with local team on MengNiu project~

passion,work ethic, and efficiency.

some people on the team I really admire and can learn so much from them. some people just kept being fashionably late and make simple things more complicate. i can learn so much from them too la~~

this photo (deleted already) was shot yesterday in the editing room, using Macbook's photo booth~It's so much fun, I really could help myself but playing with this for more than half an hour~hah~~just getting used to the Macbook~

我明白了我要的是什么样的生活，什么样的工作，什么样的感情

so, sorry if i say no. sorry if i push too hard.

THE ASSASSINATION OF JESSE JAMES  BY THE COWARD ROBERT FORD

里有我最喜欢的BRAD PITT，可是看完之后，我不得不爱上CASEY AFFLECK

可能这是一部有些无聊的电影，但CASEY和BRAD，会让她很好看

为了证明自己和年轻的小朋友们完全没有gap，

和自以为超前的老外们完全没有difference，

我决定开始用facebook了!

可是,似乎我的只只来来一一韵韵都伐喜欢用，刚阿刚伐听...

 

接受新事物不容易的我理解他们

新的不一定是好用的我也理解，

要知道我常常怀念没有手机的日子，和到处都能买到大饼油条和麻球的清晨

i wonder...

does everybody need someone to push you /guide you to make the right decision when he's young and innocent? or, is the decision right?

to balance career and family is really tough. should we choose one from two to make life simpler, to exempt us from the pains caused from struggling of seeking a balance, or should we exert ourselves to make our life at least look perfect to the others?

is Alfredo selfless to Toto, or is he a selfish old man? I believe he's very selfless and loving person . But sometimes I have doubts. I think he's more like Toto's father, give the suggestions which he considers right for Toto, obviating every hindrance and distraction to make sure Toto will be the extension of his dream, even his life. Does he know what Toto really want and really need? Maybe he's wise and guiding Toto in a right direction. Isn't this what fathers do?

about love...

The recklessness, the mistakes made, and the pureness, they are the best part of love in youthhood. Sometimes real perfection is to be found in an imperfect love. I believe the relationship between Toto and Elena could be even more beautiful and romantic if it only stays in memory of both.

Cinema Paradiso is full of reality, but it's a fairytale as well. Sometimes I doubt-

in such a self-centered world, anyone would stand under the balcany just to take a peep of you from the window, or elope with you if parents strongly object and you are poor. Does these kind of scenes only exist in old days? 

最近心情好多了牙齿好点了英文进步了

AND HAVE SOME KNOWLEDGE OF CORPORATE & IT, BUSINESS & FINANCE, EVEN GLOBAL TRENDS！！！

恩是有点SENSE了，可以过年了

this may doesn't sound huge to u, but in a city where so far the best friends of mine are all from studying place, yiyi's hitting back means so much to me, and to us!!!

why will anybody living AWAY from Shanghai? Yes, this place is sometimes unreal, material, ridiculously after fame and beauty and money, but this is Shanghai! Here's the place we grow up! we got our most lovely memories! we have those we love and care just around! And we can get starbucks, Paris Baguette so easily if we want!

yes, maybe i'll leave Shanghai for Paris or New York, since these are both incredibly desirable cities, but that'll be only for a trip or further of study, and that'll probably take at most three years. Coz i can never move out of Shanghai for any reason. I love this city!

i love shopping in this city,  going to a cinema, and having dinner in this city. I love doing all these myself. the ZHAI NAN and GAN WU NV stuff is totally understandable, sometimes i love spending my weekend at home watching DVD as well, but hey, why not just walking out of the fucking door and having fun on my own. i don't care if there's anybody with me, this is the moment i'm dating this city! so i'll never feel lonely coz there's pretty lots of stuff out there to discover and to appreciate. the flowers, the passers-by, the not-so-polluted bund, the shopwindows, the little couples' public dsplay of affection...i actually love doing these (not saying i PREFER this to dating, i always prefer dating...!)

i remember in one episode, CARRIE BRADSHAW's dating New York city. and she couldn't let it go that someone is nit-picking this great city she's always been falling in love with, even though that guy is nice-looking and just starts to hit on her. SEX AND THE CITY, to me it's more than a guidebook to love affairs and relationship, it's about NEW YORK CITY, and more exactly, MANHATTAN. in such a city where all the people manage to look fabulous and casual at the same time, all the women living their life independently and proudly. This city is so charming, that when i look into it out of this big screen, the beautiful scenery, the fabulous New Yorkers, and the amazing foursome in the show, i cannot help but falling in love with it! just like Carrie, but not in the same way.

i love Paris, and now i love New York City. guess i just belong to the metropolis !  yes i love these two great cities! and i love Shanghai more!

Shanghai is my eternal love, where i can enjoy a dinner, a promenade, and a movie, even when i'm on my own. And hey honey, never ever move out of your birth place! you can take a trip, but u can never leave!